Okay, okay, okay. How many times do I need to restart and come back here professing my new found life to the world? As many times as I need to until I have it figured out. That is the beauty in being human and having found Christ. Being the daughter of God and being forgiven of all my sins.
I cannot count the times I have done this first time back blog post, but this time is different you see. I have been found. I found my place in the world and have been given a new found lease on life.
So without boring you; quick update. I am sober again. Yes, I remember the journey years back where I was vulnerably authentic and was inspiring many to lead a great life, and then out of nowhere I started drinking and slowly found my way to the lost path again. I really didn’t like admitting I had a problem.
Awhile back in Osoyoos I met an incredible woman, and she said why aren’t you writing? This is your gift and you need to be sharing it. I should have taken her advice, but I simply was not there yet. I was hard core partying and did not want to share that nor fake how great my life was not because that is not being authentic.
If not now, when? Well, NOW!!! I would love to blog how Joshua and I met, and I likely will, but as I go through my journey from Ms. Johnstone to Mrs. McNeil I will commit to blogging my journey. The journey of the 37 day engagement and all the crazy! That’s right, I got engaged last night, and the wedding is in 37 days. I have my wedding party in place and my to do list is growing. My baptism is being planned right now by two of the bossiest women I know! Hahahaha just kidding Cristina and Rachel!! You two are amazing and our humour is next level, but please no blanket giving at either event! Hahahaha inside joke!!!
And so, I keep this entry short and sweet as I barely got any sleep, and I have a wedding planning evening ahead of me and a daily list of things to do.
So in all honesty, thank you to those who have supported me from the beginning where I thought I was ready for this. I assure you that was simply a preview because this time I have been given a new lease and my journey now includes God. All those years of resistance got me to exactly where I needed to be so that I would end up right where I am today. Sober. Of sound mind, and in love with not only God, but my future husband and myself .
XX B